Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I thought that you would appreciate my concern but you never care, right. I don't wish to care anymore. Lead your life the way that you want it to be. I don't want to care anymore. I will leave you alone from now on.
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Sunday, January 24, 2010
It has been quite a feat trying to keep up with the time and the pressure faced by students nowadays. Everyone keeps saying that students lead a luxurious life but that really depends on whether the students is able to cope with the stress, right? Anyway, I am seriously tired and sleepy these days and fyi, I am getting a lot of sleep. I guess that my body is used to my late nights that it refused to sleep early these days.
I have a feeling that I can improve my grades for this semester because firstly, I am doing better in my daily grades and also, I am doing better for the UT(s). I feel that it is seriously improving and the most improved module would be Chemistry because I managed to jump from E to C+. How cool can that be?
Alright, I am aiming for an A for my Cognitive. I have been getting straight A(s) for my daily grades in Cognitive. How 'W-O-W' can that be? I am so so loving the module. Hehe, anyway... the cute guy is in my team. HAHAHA. His eyelashes are so pretty. I cannot resist without looking at his eyes... well, I have a fetish for guys' eyes.. I don't know why but I think eyes are the perfect window to see through a person's heart. He is so cute lah when he smiled also. Haiya. It was just an eyecandy. Nice to see. :D
For Chemistry, I think that Jackson is quite unhappy with our performance because he kept asking questions and he does not look as though he is convinced with out presentation. I mean, his expression is the same throughout, I really don't know if he is convinced or he has doubts or he is not listening. But, the problems these days are getting easier and it took me only 10 minutes to understant the skeleton of the problems and the concepts. So, in conclusion... I will get better and I want to get more than a C+ for my UT, I want to at least get a B+. I would be damn happy.
For Biology, I seriously don't know what to say about it. I mean, it is easy but it gets confusing because there is way too much to think of. Haiz.
For Mathematics, I think that the formulas are killing me! Because there is just too many for me to absorb within one problem. But, I have the confidence that I can do it and I can get at least a B.
For Physics, Oh my... I don't want to leave Zeff.... I want him to teach me Applied Physics. He is so making my day always on Fridays.. :D But, we all have to adapt to changes. Alright then.. moving on.. to the grades... Okay, he is so so smashing cute and adorable. Anyway, yeah. He teaches me well. I am enlightened always. :D Fine, I move on to grades. I want to get at least a B+.
Hmmm, I must be stronger than I used to be. I must be the one that someone waits for in his life and not keep expecting much from someone. I know that somehow I lost feelings for Mr Sunshine but sometimes, I feel that I want him so much but not to the extent of obssessing on him. He was a part in my life and I still want him to be part of my life. But, he made things so easy that I wished I had not confess. Perhaps that makes it easier. I should stop caring and maybe that helped me to forget him faster. But, the more I keep thinking about forgetting him, the more he appear in my life. He seems to know when I want to forget him. I would ignore him and out of sudden he just msn or sms me. Can he sms or msn at the time that I want him to but instead of sms or msn at the time when I least expect it. He is weird and can be very idiotic at times but his words of advice or encouragement really brightens up my days. Without me realising it, it is already going to be one year that I have known him. I wished to be his friend for the rest of my life. He is not mere acquantainces but more of a close friend. A friend that you know that you can rely on. I can go on praising him but I know that it would not go anywhere. Therefore, I want to stop expecting and stop whining or stop complaining.
Life should be enjoyed to the fullest and I must always think of ALLAH instead of thinking of someone else that is not going to help me in the afterlife.
YA ALLAH, aku ingin selalu dekat ke pada-MU.
Lots of love,
Ain <3
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Saturday, January 9, 2010
R DURGA DEVI
HAPPY BORNDAY WOMAN!! :D
Anyway, this is a special post for you. I love it when everytime you are with me because you make me special the way I am and with you, I don't have to care whether to dress up nice nice and I don't have to care about anything.
You are someone that I can always count for if I need a listening ear. You are so weird and unpredictable always but that is what makes you unique. Loved your uniqueness.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOMAN!
LOVED YOU.. =)
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Friday, January 8, 2010
Today's lesson is about rainbow. How rainbow is formed and the colours spectrum.
KEYWORDS: REF(RAC)TION AND REF(LEC)TION.
I was enthusiastic for today's problem because it was not that difficult however we did get stuck at some of the questions. But anyway, I was in-charge for drawing the diagram and it took 70% of my patience away. =D Heyy, I managed to finish and mine was the most colourful one though maybe not the most accurate but I did try my best.
After the lesson, I went to pray and go back to class and pack and go off with Sandy and Fong Yan. Sorry diyanah, syahidah and syahirah. I nak balik cepat, mata dah berat, badan dah penat.
I could not find a seat in the train just now. But I saw an empty seat at Kranji then I sat but an old lady entered so I got up and let her sit. I went to the next capsule and saw an empty seat, so I sat all the way to Jurong. Then I transferred and I was damn bushed, seriously. I slept while standing all the way until Queenstown. So, you can imagine how sleepy I was. How often do you see people sleeping standing on a train. But, anyway... it was raining when it reaches Redhill. -_-'
I walked all the way home and I looked up to the sky.
MASYA-ALLAH. A RAINBOW.
I was so amazed and as I walked, I felt as though the rainbow was near to me as I walked. I felt so happy macam budak dapat lollipop. It has been ages since I saw a rainbow before. HAHAHHA! But, wouldn't it be nice if I get to see a rainbow with him. *blushes at that thought*
Anyway, I reached home at 5 and bathed straight away and prayed. Then made Milo while waiting for mum to serve dinner for daddy. Watched Pesantren Cinta. BOBBY SO HANDSOME LAHHH. :D
Then did RJ while webcaming with DEVI!
HAHAHA! Devi cannot sing Mariah Carey's obssessed!! HAHAHAHA! i thought it was some bird!!!!
Yeah, so that is about it. Going to turn in at around 11.
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Monday, January 4, 2010
Yesterday, I was so super tired and did not even have the mood to do research and do the worksheet. It is so super slack lah, plus it was raining in the morning; spoil my mood lah to have Bio for the first day back in school.
Anyway, I reached home at around 5 plus and waited for Pesantren Cinta. Gosh! He is so handsome and sweet. I love his smile and eyes. Just soo charming like someone I once liked. :D
Then I started my revision for Bio. doing notes and reading the 6P and then I get webcam with Devi. :D She got a new phone! ENVY ENVY ENVY! grrrr!
Studied till 10 and shut down my laptop and went to watch So you think you can dance Season 5. Gosh! JASON IS ELIMINATED! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! HE IS SO SO SO SO SUAVE! I LIKE HIS SMILE! and his eyes.. gosh!
I don't why but I have a frenzy for guy's eyes. HAHAHHA! weird me.. anyway, it is so cold in the class these days. I think they are doing it on purpose, when the weather is cold, the air con seemed to be free but when the weather is hot, the air con just stop working. Everyone is wearing jackets and even though I am all covered up,it is still so cold........ Brrrrrr... *teeth shaking*
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